Long Time No See

Wow! It has been over a year since I last visited this place. What a wild and bumpy ride! I survived and made it! I will try to get back to posting since things will never be normal. But I never really liked normal so I am ok with that!

Weekend Retreat

My son leaves tomorrow for a weekend confirmation retreat! I am excited for this in his life and I am sad because he is growing up so fast. My it seems just yesterday my sweet handsome son popped out almost 10 pounds. Ok so he didn't pop~In fact he really didn't make birthing much fun for the first 11 hours! Just kidding! No I didn't have fun but he was worth it all. I just hate seeing him grow up and going through the same crap the hard way that I did. But.....that is how the circle of life goes. I guess I just worry about not doing a good job raising him. But only time will tell. Hope you have a great evening! I am going to watch Chris sleep~

I am what I am...

I Am: Who I am.
I Want: Things that are beyond my reach.
I Have: A wonderful Family.
I Wish: The court case was settled.
I Fear: It will never be over.
I Hear: What I want to hear.
I Search: For answers.
I Wonder: How my kids will turn out.
I Regret: Not spending more time with my kids.
I Love: With all my heart.
I Always: Worry about my friends.
I Usually: Cuss like a sailor.
I Am Not: Ever going to be skinny.
I Dance: When no one watches!
I Sing: Whenever and wherever but rarely in tune.
I Never: Take care of myself like I should.
I Rarely: Extend myself outside of my comfort zone.
I Cry: At sad movies and when I get really stressed
I Am Not Always:Happy with myself.
I Need:Family and Friends.
I Should: Enjoy Life more and complain less.

I am Thankful!

I know that I haven't been a good Blogger! I have been a little too busy with things. But I am so thankful for so many things and I want to state a few of these things. I am thankful for my wonderful family. My husband is the best! He does so much around here it is .... hard to name them all. He helps me around the house, cooking, with the kids, does all the shopping! I really could go on and on. My kids are the best a parent could pray for. Yes, we have our moments and I do want to wring their necks but for the most part I wouldn't swap them for any other kids. I am also so thankful for my Mom and Dad. Even though my Daddy is no longer living~they did a wonderful job being parents. I am grateful for the things they taught me, the morals they instilled and the lessons they let me learned the hard way. I am so grateful for my friends! I have some wonderful friends that truly listen when I talk, hug me when I'm sad, let me complain when I'm mad, and drink with me when I need to unwind. They are the best friends a person could ever ask for in this world. They are the kindd that you can't call to bail you out of jail if you were to ever get in trouble~only because they would be sitting in jail beside you because they were with you through the ordeal. No~I havn't been to jail but I know if I do I will go with a friend or too!!I am thankful for the job that I have and the lives of those lovely Kindergarteners that touch my life. I am thankful for my health and happiness. I am so lucky and God has touched so many aspects of my life and I am gratful of His presence. I want to wish all of you a happy and healthy Thanksgiving filled with love, friends, and family! Happy Thanksgiving!

Well~I'm Back!

Sorry I have been MIA for sooooo long. I have had to take time for family, friends, and self. When I last posted I left stating my SIL was diagnosed with Breast cancer. Since then she has had a single mastectomy and will begin chemo tomorrow. I have left a lot of ups and downs out of this bog otherwise I would be typing for hours and hours. But the important parts are that God is in control and had been since the news hit. I am so glad that He is a part of Our life because it has made this so much easier on her and her family. She has the best spirit and attitude and it shows through her. She is awesome and strong! I promise to try and catch up with everyone and to post more often now that things are beginning to settle. Wishing everyone Joy for your Spirit, Peace for your Soul, and Love in your Life Always!

Wow!

I write with a heavy heart and I am writing just so I can get my thought off my chest. I received a phone call from my brother tonight. Well~I assumed Hell had frozen over or he wanted to discuss putting my Mama in an assisted living center. You see although we live in the same town we aren't very close. Well I was wrong~way wrong. He wanted to tell me about his wife~they found breast cancer. Wow! You could blow me over with a whisper. It is not that I thought my life would not be impacted by cancer. But her Mom died at an early age of cancer and ever since she has annual test and scans just to be precarious. Some times she completes scan every 6 months because of family history. They asked me not to say anything but because they wanted to be able to notify certain people and they didn't want me to hear it through the rumor vine. But they are also doing more test, bone scans and gathering all data to make decisions. My heart hurts because she is a very very private person and she does not share personal issues and I know that they are all over whelmed. She has two kids (16 and 12 year old boys)and I am sure they are rattled. Oh well thanks for listening and if my cookie crumb friend reads my blog~please just keep it in your cookie jar until I know more. Well~I'm off~Good Night!

Home again Home again!

We are home!Yeah!! I miss home! We had a nice weekend the mountains were nice~could have stayed longer! I do love the mountains! We went to the aquarium and taught my kids how to slide down a big hill on card board boxes! Which was priceless. I loved seeing my sister and her husband and their new place. Thanks to God it wasn't that bad! I still wanted to kill my sister and the way she treats my kids but my kids were wonderful! I couldn't have paid them to be better. My sister doesn't have kids and she doesn't know how to respond to kids but my kids made me proud! Oh well I'll post some pictures but I'll write more later